By meditation I penetrate the inmost ground of my life, seek the full understanding of God's will for me, of God's to me, of my absolute dependence upon him. But this penetration must be authentic. It must be something genuinely lived by me. This in turn depends on the authenticity of my whole concept of my life, and of my purposes. But my life and aims tend to be artificial, inauthentic, as long as I am simply trying to adjust my actions to certain exterior norms of conduct that will enable me to play an approved part in the society in which I live. After all, this amounts to little more than learning a role. The idea of the "imitation" of Christ and of the saints can degenerate into mere impersonation, if it remains only exterior (68-69).
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Yesterday Rob and I were home together all day. Rei and Marc also had the day off. Naturally this could only mean one thing for Rob—time to grill! He bought food and cooked while I amused Romanov who was convinced it was too hot to be outside. I, on the other hand, was walking around in my yoga wrap, top, pants, saying I was chilly and needing to be warm. Rob found me at one point, snuggled underneath the blanket in our bed.
Rob: What’re you doing?
Me: I’m cold. I just need to warm up a bit and then I’ll be normal.
Rob: (laughing in disbelief)
Me: That’s right. As soon as this passes I’ll be normal.
Rob: Well, I’m glad we had these last seven years together with your abnormality.
Me: Enjoy it while you can because soon I’ll be normal.
Rob: I dunno. I may have to ask for my ring back when that happens.
Me: Ha! When I’m normal I’ll probably just give it back.
After we had eaten, Rob decided we should go to visit his friend Chris so I got up and got dressed and we were off to find Chris who was not home so we had to go to where he works. We hung out for a while and it was good (very good) to see Chris again. Then we came home, watched V for Vendetta and went to bed.
The highlight for me was when Chris told me that one of the guys in the kitchen said I’m sexy. Yep. That’s me . . . all kinds of sexy as I baby step through the world!
Highlight for Rob was the opportunity to show off his new tattoo . . . finally, a picture!!!
Aries Horoscope for week of July 5, 2007
The bad news: Charlie and Sharon Reed, a couple in Dallas, had their old VW convertible stolen. The good news: By the time police recovered the car three months later, the thieves had given it a new paint job, and had fixed its cracked windshield and dented bumpers. Let's make this your metaphor of the week, Aries. I predict that you, too, will be reunited with something you lost, and it will be in better shape than it was before you were separated.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
I posted a picture of my herb garden once upon a time.
That was about a month ago and a lot has happened since then . . . although if you look carefully you can see that the sage in the upper left of the garden is not much larger.
I am quite pleased with myself that I didn't kill them all and oh my my my how my tomato plants are growing. They even have little blooms of future fruit on them already!
And my basil is blooming too although I am not sure you can really see it in this picture.
I used to live in a neighborhood where my directions included "you'll pass a cow mailbox on your left." The first time anyone came over for a visit they would inevitably mention the cow mailbox because it is quite a remarkable mailbox. In fact, when the owners put the house up for sale, I ached to buy the house so I would have the mailbox for my own.
I think most people thought that when I said a "cow mailbox" they thought I meant a mailbox that was painted to look like a cow or one of those little boxes where the entire cow is the box and you pull on its head to open its front and insert the mail in the cow's body. Something more like this.
Obviously most people have little vision. So back in April, we were driving down the same street where the cow mailbox is and lo and behold, across the street, there is a new mailbox. A dolphin mailbox!!!
I'm rather glad we moved away before the dolphin was added to the street. Mostly because it takes away some of the remarkable qualities of the cow. I mean, had a said, "You'll pass a dolphin mailbox on your right and a cow mailbox on your left" by the time anyone passed the dolphin mailbox they would be prepared for the surprise of the cown mailbox.
Still, I think that a year from now I want to drive down that street again just to see if anyone else in the neighborhood has added a new fun mailbox to the mix.
PS: A big huggy thank you to Rob who drove back through the neighborhood with his camera just to take these pictures for me!!!