I woke up with no fever and decided to make studying a priority. I grabbed my textbook and study guide, began looking over the questions for the chapter I had so diligently read . . . only to discover that I may as well have not bothered studying at all yesterday. I retained absolutely nothing. So I had to start all over again and I still had no clue what the hell I had read.
So after lunch I decided to move onto the next chapter which I knew is a review of content I'd studied in college. Sure that was a long time ago but review is review is review and surely things will click more easily or more quickly if I've already learned the material, even if it was in a past lifetime.
After all, isn't that the (overly simplified) explanation of karma? That we learn lessons in one lifetime that we carry over into another, right?
Well, I have now spent all day trying to understand two chapters and I still can't say I learned a damn thing. I can't answer any of the questions in the study guide. And I don't know what I'm doing wrong because I used to be able to read things and understand them. Now I am just lost. Utterly lost.
And I'm moving onto the next chapter because we have to cover 7 chapters by Tuesday and at the rate I'm understanding this material, I'll need until Tuesday just to understand the 2 chapters I've already "studied."