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When you are only trying to lose 40 lbs, a 15 lbs loss is significant, yes? Absolutely!
But nobody noticed. I received compliments on my haircut, my hair color, even the paleness of my skin, but not one word about having lost 15 lbs. I lose over 1/3 of my total goal and nobody notices.
First, let me say that I know, intellectually, that it shouldn’t matter. I am not exercising and trying to lose weight to be noticed. I’m doing all of this hard work (and there are days when it is very hard) for my health and well-being. That I was able to walk 10 miles a day, sometimes 15, while on our honeymoon with little physical distress is remarkable. I’m clearly doing the right things to take care of myself.
Knowing something doesn’t mean you don’t want a little validation, a modicum of recognition, thrown your way.
Second, I should have known nobody would notice. Why? Why would nobody notice my having lost 15 lbs in the five months since some of them had last seen me? No reason whatsoever because, when I went to the store to buy one more pair of jeans for the trip I had the reality check of trying on two sizes and learning that, in spite of losing 15 lbs, I had not gone down even one size.
So what about the September challenge and October’s challenge?
Moving right along (since I can’t help but feel that losing 15 lbs is both an accomplishment and not good enough right now), I dropped the ball on the September challenge during my honeymoon because I kept losing track of the date and then something happened (which I’ll be blogging about right here in a few days so stay tuned). However, I ended the month able to do 3 sets of 10 modified push-ups so, whether I was faithful and consistent with the challenge or not, it was a success.
Now for the October challenge.
I once took a qigong class (to which nobody else showed up so it was just me and the instructor) in which she showed us Swimming Dragon. Have you ever done an activity that immediately felt perfect, like you had found your exercise “drug of choice” as it were? I mean, some people love running the way I love yoga while others love biking, etc. Swimming Dragon felt so right when I did it that I knew I wanted to do it more. Unfortunately, finding a dvd with Swimming Dragon in it was not uncomplicated. I found one that purported to have something like it but it wasn’t quite right. (Lucky for me I borrowed the dvd or I’d have been stuck with a not quite right fit). Then I borrowed a book from the library and lo and behold there was the exercise, right there in this very slender book.
I did not know at the time that the exercise is purported to help the practitioner lose weight. I am choosing this qigong practice as my challenge for October not because it’s supposed to help me lose weight. That would be nice but I really just want to learn this form for the sake of experiencing the movement again.
The practice will take about 25 minutes to do, once I know how to do it with ease. By the end of the month I should be on track. There is an initial drawing in qi energy before moving into 20 repetitions of Swimming Dragon. Because of the twists and turns of the body, the hips moving in opposition to the torso which is following the spiraling movement of the hands, this is a great exercise to help work the core and challenge my balance without pushing myself.
So here I am, begrudgingly disappointed but persevering nonetheless. And patting myself on the back for gaining only 3.4 lbs, given how I was eating! Needless to say, the qigong practice is not all I will be doing. Yoga and walking will continue to be a part of my daily exercise. I continue to struggle with really incorporating strength training into it all so that will be another part of my focus.
Oh, and as if that were not enough, Erin bought Leslie Sansone’s latest dvd so I am joining her in doing this challenge for which you don’t even need the dvds (although I confess that it helps me if I have resources easily accessible and all in one place so that I don’t have to think about doing things). I think Erin will be doing it as well but, even if she isn’t, I’m going to do this challenge. Albeit, on the days when I cover the challenge requirements during my morning walk with Snowdoll, I can fulfill the challenge requirements without doing more. There will be days when more than a two mile walk is required, I’m sure. But for the first week I can probably finish it all before 8am.