Tuesday, August 05, 2014
I’ve come to a decision. I’ll no longer post a weekly weigh-in on Tuesdays. It only makes sense to put my weekly weigh-in content in with my weekly update. The two easily fit together. So this will be my last weekly weigh-in post.
This week there was no loss, no gain, but oh so much pain! I’ve heard most of my life “No pain, no gain” and here I am torturing myself with physical therapy exercises, gasping in pain, sometimes fighting back tears, and I didn’t gain but I didn’t lose.
So now I’m 8 lbs above my annual goal with no end in sight.
I have two physical therapy appointments this week and I’m hoping that I’ll be given the green light to do things for myself—to walk without the cane, to take the dogs outside in the back yard, to have some mobility again.
The truth is, my frustration is getting in my way. I want to see improvement immediately. Not slow and steady but now, right now. So I guess this is an exercise in acceptance, accepting where I am and the pain of how I am. And I’ll focus on the improvement—the better extension—and not on the stagnation—the ongoing pain. I am doing everything I should and nothing more because I’m afraid of overdoing things. No. That’s not entirely true. I add some of the exercises the physical therapist does with me during our sessions. I told her on Thursday that I did, and which exercises I completed on top of the ones on the printout she gave to me, and she approved. Yes, I’m careful but I’m also ready to be on the other side of all of this and back on my own two feet.
Sunday, August 03, 2014
|Not quite finished but almost there.|
Still looking kinda messy.
Still looking kinda yummy.
Boring week is boring.
Seriously, being stuck in bed all of the time can become mind numbing if you don’t consciously resist the ennui. I have books to read and I watch various shows and movies, filling my day with small activities.
The highlight of my week involved having Erin and Bibi here on Saturday. Matt’s birthday was on Thursday and Erin, who wants to learn how to do more cooking, came over with all of the ingredients she needed to make a really wonderful carrot cake. The recipe we used was similar to one I had used when the children were young, one I lost in a move ages ago. I taught Erin a trick I use to make the tops of cakes look fancy. And I was able to supervise from the bed (for the most part), walking Erin through the various complicated steps. She says the cake tasted great. Yay! I’m hoping that she or Joe will swing by with a sliver so I can have a taste too.
But the best part is that Erin says Matt felt special because we had gone to so much trouble on his behalf.
Erin was actually part of another good thing that happened this week because she took and passed her GED. I’m so happy for and proud of her for taking this step. Now her opportunities have broadened and she is a step closer to fulfilling her goals.
And as if that weren’t enough, Erin and I are drawing together, as I mentioned in my previous post. Doing these drawings gives me something to do during my day, other than lie around staring at the ceiling. As much as I love reading, my eyes get tired of looking at things close up. Not that the drawing exercises I’ve posted afford me the opportunity to draw anything at a distance but today . . . well, the next few exercises include a couple where I can look further than arm’s length and I’m sincerely looking forward to it. So yes, you can expect more photos of sketches I’ve done throughout the week in an upcoming post.
My intention is to be more productive in spite of my being stuck in bed. I have let days sort of slip by and have been feeling demotivated. Perhaps it’s the physical therapy this past week, painful as it is, that is helping me to reprioritize. Perhaps it’s the start of a new month. Either way, I pulled out my neglected bullet journal and mapped out a few things. I’m still trying to tweak the basic format to something useful for me. The last few months have been a bit crazy. Think about it. In the past two months I went from working 3 half days a week to working 4 full days, had my son in town for a week, and then was put on bed rest for an entire month, plus I started physical therapy. Is it any wonder that trying to find a way to make the bullet journal system work best for me keeps changing from week to week? After all, how my week looks when I am going into an office is different from how it looks when I am lying in bed almost all of the time. So I am trying on a little something different in my bullet journal. I'll let you know at month's end how it worked out.
This week, I have two more physical therapy appointments. Other than that, no big plans. Oh, but I have so many things to do!