Saturday, November 05, 2011

Better but . . .

I woke up with no fever and decided to make studying a priority.  I grabbed my textbook and study guide, began looking over the questions for the chapter I had so diligently read . . . only to discover that I may as well have not bothered studying at all yesterday.  I retained absolutely nothing.  So I had to start all over again and I still had no clue what the hell I had read.

So after lunch I decided to move onto the next chapter which I knew is a review of content I'd studied in college.  Sure that was a long time ago but review is review is review and surely things will click more easily or more quickly if I've already learned the material, even if it was in a past lifetime.

After all, isn't that the (overly simplified) explanation of karma?  That we learn lessons in one lifetime that we carry over into another, right?

Well, I have now spent all day trying to understand two chapters and I still can't say I learned a damn thing.  I can't answer any of the questions in the study guide.  And I don't know what I'm doing wrong because I used to be able to read things and understand them.  Now I am just lost.  Utterly lost.

And I'm moving onto the next chapter because we have to cover 7 chapters by Tuesday and at the rate I'm understanding this material, I'll need until Tuesday just to understand the 2 chapters I've already "studied."

Friday, November 04, 2011


Went to bed Wednesday with a headache.

Woke up yesterday with a headache. Studied all day in spite of the headache. Hoped the OTC meds would take effect. They didn't. I still had a headache.

Woke up today with a fever and headache.

I had hoped to use the weekend to make up for the fact that I didn't do any nano writing yesterday but now I am not sure what I'll be able to do today. I have to study seven chapters by Tuesday. In spite of a headache and now a fever.

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

NaNoWriMo Snippet: Day 02

I think I'm insane.  I'm trying to study (cover 8 chapters in one week) and the weather is being completely uncooperative.

Even her cowboy hat was decorated with rhinestones and pearls.

So here I am and today I completed 1773 words today.

And then there's the Poetic Asides Poem A Day Challenge (aka PAD Challenge). Yesterday's prompt was "procrastination" or "proactive."  I found neither inspiring and I hate what I wrote but here is one of the three crappy things I wrote, all three false starts.

I'm waiting for your tomorrow
to catch up with my today and
your someday to be now because
I have things to say, things that,
unlike you, won't go away.

I'm so tired.  And I still have to do more studying.  Is there a way to study and nap at the same time?  If only osmosis would work. I'd sleep with the textbook if that's what it would take.  I don't think Rob would have a problem with this.  He's not a jealous guy.

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

NaNoWriMo Snippet: Day 01

If you look to the right (at least with the current layout that is where you'll see it), you'll see a word count progress bar.  (And if you are reading this long after November 2011 then it is probably not there.  Sorry.)

Today begins NaNoWriMo and I am not officially participating for personal reasons I choose not to put out to the public.  But there is something to be said for the word count tracker they offer on their site and the idea of public accountability. I am also not writing a novel and, although I know that other people participate in the challenge who are not writing novels, I am not following the rules so why bother officially registering?

So here I am and here, for your reading pleasure (or at least distraction) is the first of what I hope will be thirty nano snippets.
It was somewhere between the two Larry’s our relationship fell apart and that is how I ended up living at Project 21, a group home for teenagers who had nowhere else to go.