Friday, January 04, 2013

This is My Finger--It Hurts

So I kinda hurt my finger the other day.  You can almost see it's bruised, right?

It is my pinky finger, so no big deal right?  Well, who knew someone with the name "Satia" would use her pinky a lot.  I mean A LOT when she is typing.  I clearly did not.  So last night I wrapped it up in tape with my ring finger to keep me from doing something stupid to it in my sleep.

Okay.  Stupid-er because you are probably wondering what I did to my poor finger to cause it to bruise.  Are you ready for the stupidest answer because I'm about to tell you after the next picture.

I kicked it. Yep.  I kicked my own finger. And that picture there shows what it looks like right now as I type this.  Okay.  Not quite right now because clearly I took the picture and uploaded it and now I am typing.  But that's what it looks like.

It doesn't hurt as much, however.  I may still tape it up tonight, just to be extra cautious.

In case you're wondering how I kicked my own finger, let's just say I was exercising and it wasn't easy and it hurt a lot but not enough to keep me from continuing to exercise for another 15 minutes because I was determined to get in my cardio for the day.

So I'll be catching up on comments on both of my blogs and finding recipes and doing what I can.  If not tomorrow then definitely by Sunday (I'm typing this Friday night).  There is something perversely ironic in how I seem to be striving to get some momentum happening in my life and I keep being blindsided by stupidity, most of it my own.

Monday, December 31, 2012

May I Have a Do-Over?

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Image found here.
I hinted at a couple of other things happening in my 2013 and here we go with the few more things.

First and foremost, I passed my Medical Billing & Coding course.  In fact, I passed it with an A.  Pretty exciting, right?  Well, I took the course final exam after I had already taken the certification exam and, in spite of that solid A I earned I failed the certification exam.  Now, I could get into the pedagogy and break the course’s curriculum and design point by point.  After all, I do have a degree in education so I sort of know whereof I speak.  However, the point is moot.  I failed the certification exam and now I have two choices:
  • Take the exam again in 2013
  • Give up altogether
Doesn’t seem like much of a choice, really.  But the 2013 code books will cost me another $170 so I’m going to try to just use the 2012 books I already have, knowing that I will probably end up getting some answers wrong because my books will be outdated.  I have registered to take the exam again on 16 February and if I do not successfully pass this second time then I will use my birthday money to buy the books and take the exam a third time.

I am understandably very disappointed by this turn of events and chose not to tell anyone because there were so many good things happening over the Christmas holidays that I simply refused to put a pall on anyone else’s experiences.

The same day I was successfully failing the exam, my daughter, Shira, passed her driving test.  She is now a fully licensed driver and getting her ducks in a row to get a car.  This will open doors for her, allowing her to seek employment beyond the limits of the very limited public transportation where we live.  I am thrilled for her and I know it was difficult for her to work through the years of fear her father had planted in her mind when she was too young even for a learner’s permit. 

And two days after I took my certification exam, two days before I would know whether I passed or failed, Marc took the GRE and is well on his way to going to graduate school, with plans to study Japanese translation. 

I am so proud of both of them for moving their lives forward in directions that will open doors of opportunity and empower them.  How could I possibly do otherwise?

A few weeks ago I posted about my giving Body By You a try with a promise to update on a weekly basis. Then the RAM collapse of 2012 hit followed by the holidays and I just gave up trying to keep up with things for a while.  But a new year is almost upon us/me and I will renew my commitment to the program.  I was finding it good if not altogether challenging.  I went to the forums to see what information I could find there and so far there really isn’t any community support designed for this book but I suspect that the author’s marketing team are on it.  The book is due to be officially released with the new year and I assume there will be a place on the fora, a folder specifically for the women who are using this book and looking for change.  

My hope is to update about once a week, some details about my exercising, maybe the occasional recipe Rob and I have tried, or other things that I feel might be interesting.  Of course, I can only try to follow through on this as, when I initially considered making this a part of my 2013 I assumed I would have passed the certification exam and not have to think about studying for it any longer.

So 2013 promises to be full and I may have to put off some things, like the scrapbooking on weekends, because I’ll be studying (again) for the certification exam.  And because of the studying, I may or may not be as consistent I had hoped to be with my blogging with the new year.  Writing, however, has been put on the back burner as I attempt to learn how to code and I have taken this a step further.  Knowing that I will be reading my many accumulated books, some of which are on writing, I have filed away all of my writing.  Rather than continue revising and rewriting what has already been written and remains unpublished, I’ll start afresh, perhaps write something new, something interesting enough to others that it will not only be read but published.  In 2012, I managed to earn $500 with my editing skills.  It would be nice to earn that much with my creative writing.

My priorities are in place and, if failing the certification exam was a surprise (and believe you me, it was), then I’ll just have to reprioritize until I really can say I have taken the exam and it is behind me.  In the meantime, pardon me if I feel like I’m running in place.    

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Closing In on 2013

For years, my mother bought
me this diary and
it is still a personal favorite.
I am looking forward to 2013, as I’ve expressed more than once before.  The past year has been a challenging one and I always assume that whatever the previous year’s experiences may have been the upcoming year will be a change.  Not necessarily a change for the better.  Different will suffice.

One of the things I’ve committed to doing in 2013 is to read the books I’ve accumulated (I mention some of the creativity books in this post here) over the years.  Too many books cluttering my never enough bookshelves.   The plan is to not borrow any books from the public library that are not either artistic/inspirational/crafty or children’s books.  I want to still borrow books because the public library relies on funding that is based on how many books are borrowed.  In an effort to continue supporting my teeny tiny local library, I figure I can have the “best” of both worlds—read the books I have on hand yet borrow books from the library.

I’ve created this pinterest board with a nearly complete list of the books I currently have on hand.  Nearly complete because there are boxes blocking access to some of the books and there are many more books that remain unpacked.  But these are most of the books.

I’ve also shared how, in 2013, I’ll be reading through the Bible (again) with someone I care about a great deal. 

The past year has been difficult, especially as I try to find ways to connect with those I care about most deeply.  Reading the Bible is one small gesture.  We will mutually benefit from the experience and, for me, the most important part of this will be the opportunity to enhance a relationship that matters a great deal  to me.

To that end, I invited my daughter to join me in something as well.  We’ve agreed to work on our handwriting, to improve our penmanship.  I borrowed several resources from the public library and found this one book:  Write Now by Inga Dubay.  Unfortunately, it is out of print so we will have to borrow it multiple times, returning it and practicing and then borrowing it again.  There seems to be a real gap in such resources with basic handwriting resources designed for children and then calligraphy but nothing really in between meant to just help an adult write more legibly.  This book seems to fit the bill quite nicely and my daughter concurs.

We’ve agreed to do the following:
  • Write one page a day
  • Scan one page from the previous week’s practice and email it to one another
  • Once a month, send one another a quote or something similar to write
That last one will be put into play later in the year.  At first, we will be doing enough just practicing our form, writing rows of letters and such.  It is a simple thing and often it is the simple things that make connecting all more precious.
If you care to join me, if you wish to practice your own penmanship with the hope of improving, please leave a comment.  
Which brings me to the next project for 2013.  This year for Christmas I gave each of my children an empty jar.  (I also gave one to our neighbors, sent some slips of paper to Love, and shared this with just everyone and anyone on facebook, google+, and pinterest.)  The idea behind this is to take an empty jar and, beginning with the new year, every time something good happens you write it out on a small slip of paper.  Then, on New Year’s Eve, you open the jar and read all of these slips of paper you have collected during the previous year. 

Needless to say, I love this idea or I wouldn’t have shared it so promiscuously. (And yes, it is not a coincidence that I'm making sure to share it here too because I really want everyone possible to at least think about this idea, and maybe, just maybe, find it as enchanting as I.) After all, 2012 may have had its disappointments, like my mother flying to be with my uncle before he died during my one and only visit, and my step-sister's mother dying, as well as a widowed aunt-by marriage.  But it also had some wonderful moments as well.  In April, my son officially adopted his step-daughter and in October the adoption was finalized. 

I became a grandmother.

My son also visited us for the holidays and, because Rob did not go home to see his family, I had most of my immediate family here for Christmas.  In fact, at one point when I was lying down, I could hear the laughter of my children, the voices of their bantering with Rob, and I thought to myself, “I could die right now and do so perfectly content.” 

Contentment, even for a moment, is a wondrous thing.

So there were these good moments and maybe some pouting disappointments and even some palpable grief but the year is coming to a close and I am not licking my wounds.  Rather, I am looking forward to the new year and, as I’ve already shared, making plans. 

Now where were we?  I said I would be:
As if that were not enough, I’ve agreed to do a few other things.

My son Marc took his GRE in 2012 and has a projected score of 311/340.  I don’t know how the projected score relates to the actual final score but I think it’s safe to say that he’s pretty much locked down any chance of his going to graduate school.  In the meantime, he’s in Chicago and will be filling his 2013 jar.  But he’s also agreed to watch some Netflix instant streaming movies with me.  Oh boy!  We’ve agreed to watch 2 movies a month and touch base with one another, share our thoughts and feelings about what we watched.  Not unlike a book club only using movies/Netflix.
Consider this an open invitation.  If you have Netflix and would like to join us, I would love to do so.  Yes, my son and I will be watching 2 movies a month but, given an average of 4 weeks per month, that leaves 2 weeks open and we could do this as an online thing.  Leave a comment if you’re interested.
Rob and I are also finding ways to build our relationship.  We’ll be exercising.  Together, no less!  We’ll also be watching movies/dvds together, learning a foreign language together, and we’ve planned monthly game dates with local friends and family members.  Second Tuesday of every month with a request to have RSVPs by the preceding Sunday so we can plan a potluck.  (That way, even when we don’t have enough money to have everyone here, we can make sure everyone has something to eat.)

There is something more, something else, which I choose to withhold for now.  I’m clearly inspired by 2013.  Are you inspired as well?  What are you plans, your intentions, your hopes, wishes, expectations, goals for the new year?